Nourishing the Whole Self

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how to nourish myself. I’ve been finding myself exhausted after work and getting into cycles of boredom, depression, and apathy. But I want to be awake to live my life outside of work. There is a whole lot to appreciate and not a whole lot of a time to live. I don’t believe in god, a supernatural, a collective human soul….or anything like that, but I’m still a person with emotions and mental health to take care of. It’s like I hit some type of disconnect with my atheism.  I forgot that even though I’m not partaking in nourishment through religion, I still need to take care of my whole self.  When I was a Christian, I believed I had to work to improve my relationship with god. I would pray more, read my bible, go to bible studies, go to church and all that stuff.  It never satisfied me, because none of that was real. But I was spending time thinking, reflecting, and even laughing. Now I’m trying to take some of those aspects and aggressively make them apart of my life. 

One key element I’ve found to nourishing myself is staying mentally active. Sometimes it’s so easy for me to just park on the couch after work and watch a Castle marathon for several days in a row, but the easy way is not always the best way. It’s been surprising what I’ve found when by tuning into my mental activity levels. I find that even if I’m exhausted, it helps me feel relaxed. It helps me channel my stress, let go of worries that don’t serve me, and connect better with those I’m close to. I’ve also realized it doesn’t have to be a daunting task to keep me mentally active. Reading comic books, having a good conversation, and playing certain video games are all good for keeping my mind moving. I’ve also realized pretty much everything I had on my iPhone (games, apps, Facebook) were poison for me and added nothing of value to my life (except Google maps, I’m always lost). 

I’m also trying to take care of my body. Getting sleep, eating right, drinking lots of water, and exercising regularly are all helping me nourish myself. I am a very moderate person. I don’t diet, I don’t restrict myself foods, and I don’t stick to a strict gym routine. I try to go to the park a few times a week, eat my fruits and veggies, but I still like to enjoy a doughnut now and again 🙂

As far as nourishing the spirit goes, I’m just trying to take some deep breaths, be kind to myself, and let go of stressing about things I don’t need to. I’m leaving work at work, and taking time to enjoy me and those I love.

m.c.

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A Very Atheist Wedding

Lately, my mind has been on wedding wedding wedding! We’ve been engaged for a year, but because I’ve been travelling, we haven’t done much planning (except for my momentary panic attack in which I got an elopement in Vegas half way planned…) Now that things have settled down, we are planning a nice, quaint, relaxed, fun, and special day (totally god free!).

I am really trying to avoid a lot of the wedding consumerism and culture. I hate so much of the etiquette and expectations that come along with it. Looking for venues and finding about things like “cake cutting fees” is just absurd to me. That being said…I do find myself getting so excited about finding a beautiful venue and wedding dress shopping. On Thursday we’re going to tour a historic mansion as a possible venue!! I’ve been thinking about it so much. I’m really trying to enjoy the process and not become stressed out about it. No reason to!

Around here, people have definitely been shocked when they find out I’m not getting married in a Catholic church and having the reception at a country club. Even some people who know I’m atheist thing I should be getting married in a church. Our wedding is going to have a lot of personality. I like that I don’t have to confine it to the rules of a religion. I took a theology course last semester that had a segment on marriage. The professor was extremely opposed to any part of a ceremony that deviates from the catholic instructions. The articles I had to read were so insanely judgmental! It drove me nuts that the focus of the wedding was not on the unique and special relationship between the couple and their decision to devote their lives to each other. As an aside, why would I worship a god who had some problem with me writing my own vows or playing meaningful music at my wedding? I realize that not all religions/people feel that way– but my issues with the varieties of “god” is another issue.

In conclusion, my feelings are this: People can get married however they damn well please. I’m just thankful for the flexible and fun wedding Patrick and I are planning. Also, pre-marriage counseling sounds so awful to me, so yay for dodging that bullet!

stay adorable, M.C.